I have a book called "When. God writes your love Story" by Eric & Leslie Ludy. For ages, I have felt somehow that there is something wrong with me because I do not date. No more. Being liberated and free does not mean that I try to manage doing something that I'm really not comfortable with for the sake of being sociable. As I've written before, finding something extraordinary does not happen when one is doing the same thing everyone else is doing. I don't believe in dating, but I do believe in courtship. The old fashioned art of being loyal to someone because it's the right thing to do no matter what the circumstance, and then seeing love grow out of that.
I've come to find that really growing up can mean being accepting of weaknesses, which at times can be much more tricky than developing a strategy and moving obstacles outta the way. Now, there is absolutely nothing wrong with the latter. Amen when this happens, it's AMAZING!! But, this doesn't always happen. All I really want is to be very secure, and whenever possible... don't rush me. Is this unrealistic? I think so, because there is no perfect situation. But deep down, this is all I want. So, for honesty's sake, I need to start there. Going out in groups... Great thing. Movies, with popcorn (after we've talked a few times) great! But dating for the sake of finding someone? Well, they say it always happens when one is not looking, so, in that case, I'm not sure I see the point. :). I really do think that in order to have something extraordinary, you should be someone extraordinary. Now, I'm just as human, as anyone else, and because I don't do the dating thing in the typical way, I've had to wait a long time for someone. But I have a savior who is in control of my life. With his leading, I will be positioned n the right place at the right time... and so will Mr. Wonderful! The price He paid for me was not cheap, and so neither will the price paid by my one and only... but it will be well worth it!
As many times as I've felt as though the waiting would drive me outta my mind, and the difference was too much, God has always shown me that what he has for me is so much better than any short cut I might be tempted to take, in order to just get the wait over with. He calms me down, and I realize, I'll be okay! :). Jeremiah 29:11; Psalm 139; Psalm 37 (and the Story of Isaac & Rebecca in Genesis.
