When Josh Harris wrote his groundbreaking book, I was so relieved because I felt like someone was saying what I'd always wanted to say, but didn't know how. So, I gladly kissed dating goodbye. and was proud of that. The thrill of the Lord finding my husband for me gave me a security and a peace that outweighed the false comfort of "dating" and being in "relationships." It also was a way of giving myself more fully to God. But there was a problem. My mind and heart were still "glued" to finding a man. I didn't see anything wrong with this, because I reasoned that it's God's will that I get married... right?
So, I didn't date, or enter into short term relationships, but my mind and heart were emmersed in the hope of being in my husband's arms... so much so, that, without intending to, I actually created an idol out of marriage itself. The journey realizing this has been long and tough (15 years to be exact). If God had told me when I was sixteen that I'd be waiting that long for my "other half," I think I would've fainted and then given up altogether when I regained consciousness. However, I've now discovered that this is how God creates his miracles. He stretches us further than we ever would've wanted, but then we come out on the other side, and find that God is still with us, and we're okay. I'm still alive and kicking and I can say with absolute certainty, that my life is awesome. I know now that I'm rich in Heavenly blessings and these are the best blessings of all.
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