If my husband and I moved away to some island somewhere, and all we had to do was hold each other, I suppose, then, I could get married. But this isn't a deserted island.. it's the real world. I once heard Henry Fonda say (in "yours Mine and Ours") that it isnt going to bed with a man that proves your in love with him, it's getting up in the morning and facing the cold cruel, miserable world with him that counts. Anyway, it was something to that afffect. Will I be able to face the miserable world with this guy? Can I face broken plans and unexpected disasters (That may not be disasters) with grace? I know I can't have the answers to all these questions now... but I keep wanting them anyway. I refuse to base a marriage on fear that it may not work out. This is a recipe for disaster. I wanna stand on God's truth, and let him guide me.
I don't get it... if the dreams in my head are so much better than the real thing, and my life is much simpler now, why can't I just take singleness and go? If I've got it all right here, why don't I believe it? If I don't "got it all" right here, am I trying to say that God isn't enough? What am I missing?
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